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In case anyone has noticed, and was wondering why I haven't been my smart mouthed self in a while, I figured I'd offer an explanation. For whatever reason, and I'm guessing it has to do with some kind of hormonal/chemical change from having Mya, my body's been basically falling apart. I have literally no memory, I'm irritable, depressed, anxious, paranoid, my hair is falling out, and I'm spacing out. Mya's almost 6 months now, and it's a little late for the onset of post par tum depression. I'm getting my thyroid check (I have almost all of the symptoms of hypothyroidism), and I'm waiting to get a appointment with a neurologist to get tested for absence/petit mal seizures. About 2 weeks ago apparently I drove to walmart to meet Michael and he said that I apparently "spaced out" when he was trying to talk to me, I looked right through him and was completely confused. I don't even remember driving there or how I got home. That's probably not good. I'll be talking mid sentence and just stop and stare off for a few seconds, and not remember doing it. Sometimes I get confused after, sometimes not. My choking episodes are also much worse. I've been choking more frequently, sometimes on a daily basis, which is followed by an overproduction of mucus, which makes it even harder to swallow. My grandmother is on medication for hypothyroid, and she has trouble swallowing as well, and apparently hypothyroidism can be triggered by pregnancy bc for whatever reason your body's immune system starts attacking your thyroid. My mother also has lupus which is an autoimmune disorder, and had epilepsy, so there is a strong probability that I may have either or possibly both. I would love just to figure out what the hell is going on and stop playing the guessing game. I've been teaching MJ how to dial 9-1-1 because mommy chokes all the time, sometimes I won't even eat if I'm alone with the kids because I'm afraid of choking. The gastroenterologist thought that this choking was a form of allergic esophagitis, and prescribed an maintenance inhaler which has done nothing. So if I seem "off" at work or have the mental capacity of Paula Abdul, that would be why.

What Are You Thankful For

Main Entry: grateful
Part of Speech: adjective
Definition: appreciative
Synonyms:
beholden, gratified, indebted, obliged, pleased, thankful
Notes: grateful means feeling or showing gratitude or feeling thankful; gratified means having received what was desired; gratuitous means costing nothing or free - unnecessary or unwarranted - without cause


Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope everyone is enjoying their turkey day, mine will be spent at work, but I will be enjoying the traditional food coma at my mom's house after work. This really has been the month from hell, pushing me to the brink mentally,emotionally, physically and financially. After everything that's happened this past month it gives today that much more meaning, beyond the football games and Macy's Holiday parade. Even though I am at work today while most are enjoying their turkey dinner's at home, and I am missing Mya's 1st Thanksgiving, I am thankful I have a job, a GREAT job with great benefits and co workers, when many do not have one. I'm missing out on time with my two precious babies, but they are healthy and having fun with their family. I have an amazing husband who is my best friend, and feel blessed to have him when many are alone or have less than loving significant others. I actually have begun attending church, and the members are very nice and seem to be non judgemental, which is nice when you feel like the whole world is judgeing you. I wish there were less drama and stress in some areas, but I can not control or fix what others do. Sometimes people make very poor decisions that are very hurtful to people who they are supposed to treat with love and respect, but the only thing you can do is take that situation for face value so you can have peace in your life. You can only be responsible for your own actions. I'm working on finding more peace, and letting go of stress. For that I am also thankful :)

Diaper Drive

Through the generous approval of my higher ups, the diaper drive to benefit A Baby Center of Hyannis, is now officially up and running at Mashpee PD. I am particularly proud of this drive because it directly benefits our community, there are many charities out there that you will not be able to see how your generosity affects the recipients. The diaper drive will benefit families living on the Cape and Islands who fall under the federal government guidelines for WIC. According to A Baby Center's website :http://www.ababycenter.org/abc/bc/index.html, there is a need of around 15,000 diapers PER MONTH needed to accomodate the babies living in our area.



A Baby Center's
Wish List

Diapers (Sizes Newborn to 6)
Pull-Ups (Sizes 2T-4T)
Baby Wipes
Baby Wash (Head to Toe)
Diaper Rash Cream
Wash Cloths
Infant Towels (Hooded)
Pacifiers
Bedding, Crib sheets and pads
Cribs (No more than 4 years old)
New Crib Mattresses
Children’s Clothing (sizes newborn to 4)
Toddler shoes and socks
Toddler Pajamas
Single and Double Strollers
High Chairs
Potty Seats
Formula (dry and liquid)


Volunteering for Birthday Wishes has really opened up my eyes to all the families and children in need that live among us, and I am so excited about this diaper drive, now I continue on to working with the other two sources I had contacted previously. *Wish me luck*

Mashpee 5k, Halloween & Going Back To School ..... OH MY!!!!!

Time has flown by, I can't believe Halloween has come and gone, and my baby girl is five months old. I successfully completed the Mashpee Firefighters 5K race to benefit the one, the only, Steve Bold. My "race" time was not much better than when I participated last year when I was about 10 minutes pregnant, but I had a good time, so that's really all I care about. That and I managed not to be scraped off of the pavement by rescue, that's always a bonus. My best friend Sara came with me, and we swapped off pushing the jogging stroller with little miss Mya in it, next time it might be a good idea fir the two asthmatics to being atleast one rescue inhalor ..... After the 5k I went to my parent's to get Michael Jr ready for trick or treating. I was so pumped about his halloween costume that I scored from Plush & Plunder Vintage in Hyannis. I actually spent more on his face paint than the actual costume. Thankfully my mom came trick or treating with us, that would've been interesting to be chasing around a 3 1/2 year old with the double stroller ... up hill both ways ... seriously, have you been in the neighborhood of durfee ln/eli ln ?! Literally uphill both ways. After trick or treating we visited my friend Amy Beth's mom's home on Roberta Jean in East Fal, these people make Halloween their profession for the month of October, no joke. They convert their back yard into the "Haunted Acre Wood", complete with 3-D maze, fog, vortex and creepy dead people jumping out at you.





After a weekend of festivities I spent the last day of my 3 day weekend being productive. I must've blacked out yesterday because somehow I managed to re enroll into Cape Cod Community College (aka the concrete jungle) after a six year hiatus. After speaking to an advisor I found out that I have half of an associates in Criminal Justice completed, 33 more credits and I can be the proud owner of a shiny new associates degree. I wish it didn't take me this long to figure things out, but it has to be done, I'd like to have some sort of degree by the time I'm 30. I'm still trying to balance out finances, work, and child care, so we'll see what happens. Fingers crossed.