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Monday, May 31, 2010

Day 2



Day 2 of medication was much better than day 1. MJ was able to have an uninterrupted nap, and was not sleepy thereafter. It was the 1st day in the past two years where the day was without a constant battle, yelling or multiple time outs. MJ still had his usual lack of focus,whining, back talk and freshness, but the reduction in hyperactivity alone was amazing. It really opens your eyes when you have a day where you see your son the way he really is without his personality being over taken by insatiable hyperactivity, my husband and I were not completely drained emotionally and physically by 7PM, we were able to enjoy our family without the tension and the tears. For the first time in 2 years MJ actually sat down at dinner, THE ENTIRE TIME, and ate his dinner. There was no jumping off his chair 5 or 6 times, there was no trying to pull his baby sister out of her high chair or running in and out of the living room. We only had to ask him to do something 2 or 3 times instead of asking incessantly until we lost our patience and either ended up yelling at the kid or putting him in time out.





I realize that its only day 3 today, and we have a long road ahead of us, but even getting a glimpse of our little boy's true self was amazing , and I will not stop and do anything it takes to help him achieve his personal best. I know there are still going to be rough days, and there is no magic pill, but there are tools to help you achieve your goal and in conjunction with behavioral therapy and daily routines, MJ can learn to help himself <3

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Between A Rock And A Hard Place





What do you do when you seem to have all the answers, yet no solution. I've been noticiably absent this past month or so, mostly due to the whirlwind that is my family life, between my grandfathers worsening health, and MJ's escalating behavior, I'm like that supporting branch thats about to snap. We have the diagnosis of ADHD combined inattentiveness and hyperactivity, and we started day 1 today of .5 mg of Tenex which is a alapha 2 beta blocker, non stimulant and non controlled substance. Sounds like a great alternative to the stimulant medications on the market that are commonly prescribed to ADHD, however one of the most commons side effects is drowsiness or solmnence..... Today was not what I'd call a optinmal day for starting a new med, but we wanted to try and get this adressed asap ... we had an unexpected guest at our house and my grandfather was not having a good morning health wise. MJ was given a .5 mg (1/2 of a 1mg tab) when we got up at 7:30 am. 11:00 am this kid was asleep on the couch. I had to wake him up less than an hour later to go to the store, and he was extra whiney and cranky, but I did have to get him up from a nap so I figured maybe that was it.





IDK, this kid hasn't napped regularly in over a year, so IDK whether to be concerned that its the meds making him sleepy, or whether he really has needed to nap this whole time and the hyperactivity keeps him from taking the naps his body really needs. When we got home around 1:30 pm he had lunch, and was asleep again. I needed to wake him up again, less than an hour later to drop him off at my moms bc I had to work, and again he was very whiney and cranky ... So IDK if I'm hypervigilant bc we started this new med, but my heart feels like its going to explode. I don't want his little spark to be snuffed out bc of medication, and I know that its not a good thing for him to continue on the path that he's on. The beginning of the week he gave his father a black eye bc he got so excited about playing that he flung a full super soaker at his father, and with in the first 10 minutes of the exam at children's hospital he had completely covered the front of his feet and legs with marker, shredded the exam table paper, almost over flowed the sink and obsconded the Dr's reflex hammer ..... *sighs* Maybe I just need stronger anxiety medication. My husband was on ritilan when he was MJ's age, I know that Adderall has worked wonders for me (obviously not safe for MJ at this point), and MJ deserves to be at his personal best, which as it stands right now, is just not attainable ... he's a tender hearted caring, bright, and funny little man, I don't want to lose that, ever.


Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Something Special





Something Special
By Colbie Calliat



I found a way to be everything
I've dreamed of,
and I know it's in me
that I will become
who I want to be
and I finially found it and I'm taking the long way out
Cause it's gonna be, something special to me
Something special to me


Days go by
and I grow stronger
It takes time, but I'll never let go
Days go by and I'll try harder to make it mine, I know...
Something special to me
Something special to me
Something special to me



I've found
so many things
I've dreamed of
and I know it's in me
that I will become
who I want to be
and I finially found it and I am taking the long way out
Cause it's gonna be,
something special to me
Something special to me
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Days go by and I grow stronger
It takes time, but I'll never let go
Days go by and I'll try harder to make it mine, I know...
It's something special to me


More than I hoped for
More than I dreamed of
This is how it should be.
More than I hoped for
More than I dreamed of
This is how it should be.



Days go by and I'll grow stronger
It takes time, but I'll never let go
Days go by and I'll try harder to make it mine, I know.



It's something special to me
It's something special to me
It's something special to me
Days go by and I grow stronger
It takes time, but I will never let go.
Days go by and I grow stronger
It takes time, but I will never let go.




An early Celebration for my baby princess
Mýa Renée Desrosiers 06/02/2009 7 lbs 8 ounces 19 inches long ♥